what am i to do?
At this juncture of my life, I am faced with one of those daunting questions. Where do I go from here? With only a few weeks left in the semester, I am left to figure out where I will be in the forthcoming years. Besides my thesis due in the fall, I have no official plans. Why don’t I have a manual for life yet? The other day I was so enthused because I figured out a bit about myself, but here I am again facing this darn question that won’t go away. It seems everyone has an idea of what they want to do and how to do it, but I don’t. A few hours ago, a friend of mine told me I complain too much. According to him, being an American means an infinite amount of possibilities. His choices are limited to those governed by his nationality and whether they will allow him to follow his dreams or even let him dream. In a way, I am being a bit melodramatic and overstressing every minute detail. I completely sympathize with him because my life would be a different story had I grown up like he did. Overall, I guess my life isn’t so bad. I think I just have to remember those times I feel secure in my skin and keep going with it. There are no absolute certainties in life, but there are a limitless amount of possibilities—I believe that’s how the quote goes. Remember to breathe. Inhale and exhale. Inhale and exhale. Inhale and exhale.
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First things first. I have to figure out what I need to do, want to do, and plan Bs. Living in fear of what will come is absolutely no good to me or others. I need to take life as it comes, and always remember that I have to make the best out of any situation I am given. I cannot allow myself to wallow in self-pity for it will only drag me way down with it. These next two weeks have to be crunch time. Crying and sleeping won’t help the situation, it will only make things harder. I have to face life and stop being afraid to live it to the fullest, even if that means growing up and taking responsibilities. Breathe. Always remember to breathe for it is the only thing that can restore you to serenity.
