Take life by the horns

Monday, March 26, 2007

Take life by the horns

By the looks of my last post, I have been incredibly MIA. Good news! I’m back—hopefully. After speaking with Katie this morning, I feel like I should be restructuring my life to how I had it back in January. Back in January, I was focused. I had a goal and I wanted to focus on it. The end results were that I accomplished my goal and I’m heading out of the country ‘indefinitely’. These past few weeks, albeit wonderful, have caused a minor detour in my plans. I know that if I focus on one thing that everything else takes a back seat, so as the saying goes “it is awfully lonely on top”. And, if you haven’t figured it out yet, I want and need to be on top. It has been my only true goal in life: get the Ph.D before thirty, somehow manage to alter the world, and then focus on the ‘personal’ barrage of every day life. Step one is thankfully on its way.

How do I continue on my path, though? I was taking inventory on the ‘things’ I want and realized that these are all material things. I should also have goals to improve the inner me. On Friday I bought Alan Watts’ The Book and hopefully it will give me the enlightenment I need. Perhaps that is what I need in my life, to seek for enlightenment. What do I want for the inner me? Peace of mind, body, and soul. I want to be at peace with myself and the world. I would also like to be sane- ha. No really. The world has a lot of beauty and I want to find it and experience it. I want to be one with the earth. Enjoy what time I have here and the people that share my life with me.

Random Catchup:

The alpha mom is not all too keen on the idea of making me black drapes. She thinks it is too morbid. She even commented on the fact that not even funeral homes have black drapes. Her suggestion was that I add little frilly things to it and to splash some color on it for contrast. One word mother, BORING!

I met up with a friend that I haven’t truly spoken to in two years. At times, I was even dreading the encounter because I knew what was to be discussed…mostly the damn kid who started to break my heart. All-in-all, it wasn’t too bad. His name was brought up but a lot less than I expected it to. Phew! Still upset me a tad.

Farewell Thoughts:
Carpe Diem is one of my favorite mottos ever and one of the hardest to follow. I am all about seizing the moment and the day. For many, this is a jaunting task, but it shouldn’t be. People need to learn how to relax and enjoy their surroundings because who knows how long they will be there.