snotty I am not your mommy

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

snotty I am not your mommy

For someone who is constantly complaining, whining, and stressing over having nothing to do or not knowing what to do, I sure do sign up for a lot of crap. Ok, so it is not crap, it’s volunteering. Just this afternoon I signed up for a reminder for the NYC Teaching Fellows program, Big Brothers Big Sisters, and sent an email for some rape advocacy group in Chicago. Did I also mention that I sent out emails to various dig archaeologists? I did. I’m all over the map. However, when it comes time to show up I totally freeze. I feel overwhelmed. I’m always like crap…when am I ever going to find time to view my General Hospital. Oh well…I guess this is for the best. After all I seriously have spent months and months just watching TV. Besides it’s not like General Hospital is going to go off the air and as if I don’t DVR it. Yup. So that’s where I’m at. I’m always out to help others and sometimes feel too overwhelmed. I should slow down but I can’t. I need it. I need to feel useful. I feel as if I’ve retired. Nothing truly motivates me. I don’t want some snot-faced kid to call me mommy and I don’t want some tub-o-lard calling me his wife. Yuck. I grimace at the thought. Anywho…that’s my stance for now. Hmmmm seems hypocritical of me to not want some kid call me mommy and volunteer to be a Big Sister. 