watcha got cookin' 2010!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

watcha got cookin' 2010!

Hey 2010!

How do you do? I’m doing better. Thanks for asking. 2010 you’ve been OK to me. I’ve had my bipolar episodes but they don’t seem too bad. 2010, what do you have in store for me? Will my funk disappear? Will I finally come to terms with myself? 2010, I wanted a dog so very much for 2009. Sadly, I never got one. Now that you are here, I believe the dog will come to me. People keep mentioning how it’s a major responsibility to have a dog. You’d think I was asking people if I could have a baby. It annoys me in a way. I understand they come from a good place but whenever I hear people be negative, I just can’t help wonder how much of it is their own insecurities about the issue. Let’s look at the facts: I’ve never been a dog owner, not by choice, of course. I’ve always loved dogs. Throughout the years I’ve had plenty of contacts with dogs. I’ve walked friends’ dogs. I doggy-sat two French bull dogs for an entire weekend. Since they were young pups, they pretty much tore up the place. I understand that having a puppy for 2-3 days is way different than having it for 10 years. I know vet bills can get pretty out of hand. But people….I’ve always loved dogs. The only reason I’ve never owned one was because a) my brother had asthma growing up and was petrified of dogs b) almost every placed I’ve lived in had a no pet policy. I understand that owning a pet means limited apartments available but limited does not mean NO apartments available. Yes some apartments may require a deposit and others won’t accept a certain size but I can handle it. Listen people, I’ve entered this stage in my life where nothing matters. I’m bored and tired of it all. I really see no point to living any further. I’m not saying that a dog will cure this but at least I’ll have something to do. As it stands, I live to work and work to live. My life consists of waking up, trying to get to work on time, and just wasting my life in front of TV for about an hour or three until I have to go to work again. Weekends are pretty uneventful at this point. As I said, I’m bored and tired. Maybe it’s not fair to bring a dog to this environment but perhaps it’ll give me something to think about. I don’t know. At times I see this “my wanting a dog” parallel to people wanting children to love. BUT I’ve been trying to get a dog and so far it’s been incredibly unsuccessful. It’s a simple task but somehow it’s becoming a big thing. I’ve tried several times to foster a dog but those shelters don’t really reply to me. You’d think with so many animals being euthanized they’d want to save at least one. Sometimes I get seriously discouraged. I really don’t get it. How can this take me forever to do? Why is it so difficult? Well, in two to three months I’m going to see where my financial situation is. If I’ve been able to settle myself and save enough for a dog then I’ll proceed. If not, perhaps it’s time I throw in the white towel.


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I’ve decided to get more serious about my future; more specifically, my financial future. It’s about time, don’t you think? I want to buy an apartment, preferably a condo. I’m not a major fan of co-ops and having people vote you in. I’m thinking of purchasing one really, really dirt cheap. I want to fix it up that way I’m envisioning it in my head. First, I want to start with the bathroom. I want the bathroom, and possibly the whole apartment, to have a music system installed in the walls. Since I want music blaring, I’ll probably need to insulate the apartment properly to make it soundproof. SO imagine showering with music coming out of the walls. The sound system would have to be of really good quality. I don’t want it to sound all static-y and stuff. I’m thinking something along the lines of department stores. You know how shop around and the sound quality is awesome but there are no big bulky basses/amps (whatever they are called)…just like that; or when you are in the elevator that the sound is so crisp. You get the gist. Once the sound is properly installed, I want heated floors. Who wants to step out of the shower on cold tiles? Not me. Did I mention my steam room/sauna option in the shower component? The shower component that would be able to fit at least two full desks side-by-side and chairs on either end but don’t forget the lovely glass doors either. Also, it has a seating area where I could also choose to lay on. I haven’t decided the material of the bathroom but I know it’s going to be nice tiles. As for the tub, it’ll probably have to house a Jacuzzi type of power. I’m sort of stumped on the tub but I’m hoping I’ll be able to figure it out soon enough. I want it to be like that classic tub. You know what I mean. Where you can fill the tub up with bubbles, rest your head back, and best of all have plenty of space nearby for your glass of vino, salts, and other essentials. I need my bathroom to be overall soothing because it’ll be my own private oasis, my sanctuary. I definitely don’t say a bathroom leading directly to a bedroom. I require a “staging” room. It needs to have a big mirror and smaller handheld mirrors, some of which are magnifying. In this small in between area, I want a very soft ottoman type chair. I want it to have tons of storage space for my tampons, cotton balls, nail polish, etc. I think this room should be carpeted. Something about this carpeted nook just makes it feel oh-so-special. As with almost every room, this one will need a window. I require the music to flow into this room as well. Lighting is definitely key- as usual. I believe this is also the room where I put my make-up on and clear my face up for bed. I proceed to my bedroom, a sanctuary of its own. In this room, I have no television. My bed is plush and very, very welcoming. In a corner of the room, I have a chaise where I love to read a book under my cashmere throw and sip tea. The view is spectacular when my automatic blinds are up. I’m looking for special windows that are remote controlled for this function. If you know of a good window company, let me know. My wardrobe isn’t in this room. I have a walk in closet for that. It’s the size of my one-bedroom now. I love it! Well I best get back to work so I can afford this gorgeous space. Laters!