Wednesday, April 18, 2007
an existential crisis....perhaps lifted?
When exactly it happened, I have no clue. All I can say is that it is happening again. I have somehow managed to slip back into my existential crisis. The same crisis that has helped me ward off almost all my friends. It seemed like I was improving and getting over it, but no I slipped. Now I have to figure out a way to get out of it this time alive. It was hard enough the first time, so I have no clue how to get out of it the second time. At least I am able to catch it at an early stage. Ugh! Why do I have constantly question and analyze everything? Why can’t I just let things be? I have often done this and it does both good and bad. I tend to over think everything in life and it sucks! Hopefully that will cease soon.
ON another note, the existential crisis may be lifting. I got into UCL! Woo Hoo a top-notch school and I got into it! Finally, I get some validation for my hard work.
On yet another note, things with the teach last night were cool, but not reassuring. He definitely knows my bags will be packing soon and has shown no signs to want to continue anything. Oh well…really what can I do. I cannot force him to want something more. It really isn’t fair to him or me. Guess I will just let things be.
1 comments:
"The same crisis that has helped me ward off almost all my friends."
April 19, 2007 at 8:59 AMYou can't get rid of me. I'll grow on you like a fungus.
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