Tuesday, August 28, 2007
a meltdown, some relief, and another panic attack
This past weekend I had a little meltdown. It hit me like a ton of bricks that this is real. In about three weeks, I am boarding a plane and leaving the only home I’ve ever known. My insecurities of failure and not being able to make it are in full effect. Hopefully they will soon subside, or at least temporarily go away so I can settle in. Today I have to begin to cut ties with my “home base” and I am terrified. Once I do this, there is really no turning back. My security blanket will be put in the wash and I have to survive without it. Thankfully, my mother has decided to provide me with some financial security. She will be giving me a credit card for which to charge necessities, and the best part of all, she will be paying for it. How great is that? (Where was this during undergrad?) Her gesture was kindly appreciated and one I’ll probably be taking up. Well…..my apologies for the short post, but I most run some errands. I’ll try to write something again.
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