oh where, oh where has my little dog gone......

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

oh where, oh where has my little dog gone......

Welcome all to this new melancholic state of being. Well, I think it is mostly the cold, rainy weather and the fact that my countdown is in full effect. In a little under four weeks, I’ll be moving to another island, a bigger island. Hopefully I’ll be meeting interesting people, growing as an individual, and just enjoying the new stage in my life. Graduate school, I know, is going to be very challenging, but I welcome it. I want to be the best that I can be- thanks US Army for letting me steal your slogan. For the next year, I hope to mellow out, accept my new role in life, and embrace anything new that comes my way. I know I won’t be able to shed all my fears, but I want to try. Gosh darn, I need to try. It is a little sad to think that I’ll be spending the holidays alone, in a different country, on a different continent. Perhaps I’ll book a flight to another country and enjoy seeing the happiness in other people. The only thing that I won’t be to happy with is adopting new rules. The new home will be a motor vehicle- ruled place. A place where taking public transportation is something I may have to think twice about, considering that it cost more than mine now. Also, a place that closes relatively earlier, compared to my precious home’s hours. One of the good things about the new place is that I get free health insurance. For most of my life I’ve had free health insurance, but I have a feeling this one will be better.

Growing up is tough. I’ve tried to avoid it, but I just can’t anymore. I have to do it. I have to become a grown, responsible adult. Partying until the wee hours of the morning every day won’t be as acceptable anymore. Now it is cut back to only about four days out of the week- ha. I’m going to be a “grown” up, but not a bore. Budgeting, personal finances, 401Ks, and mortgages are soon to be words that will creep up my new adult lexicon. Cool, whatever, wicked, and awesome, will sadly have to be used at a minimum.  I’m here world, and I am ready to face everything you have for me.


On a side note, last night I realized that I need to be validated. My compulsive plans and take-over-the-world schemes all seem to need to undergo scrutiny by some other ears for them to be fine by me. I need someone to tell me: “Yes, that is the best way to go about that.” or “No, you need to do it this way”. Unfortunately, few are those who care to listen anymore, so I blog on.