rain again, but I won't let that stop me

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

rain again, but I won't let that stop me

Do not worry for I have not abandoned you. I am still here. Actually, come next Tuesday I will be back home! I am uber excited for that. I cannot wait to see the big ol’ red, white, blue, and dirty. The smell of stinky cabbies and dirty train platforms are a luxury I took for granted. I plan to inhale as much toxicity as possible; it may be a long time before I return.

Speaking of returns and travels, I have been considering moving out of this depressing shit hole to possibly move to Paris or Barcelona/Madrid. I need some more excitement than what this stuffy town can afford. I am well aware that no matter where I go I will have to respect the laws, but still anything would be a slight step better. Although I used to love the dark skies and rainy days, over here they just have too much of it. Once in a while I would like to see the sun. It wasn’t all that bad from what I remember.

Besides another possible move, I have decided to stop running from life. I am tired of being the one shit-out-of-luck. I want to just live a normal life. Being an automaton is not my idea of fun, but I have been considering doing the necessary and adding more fun into my life. If something positive – like new friends or boyfriends – come from it than so be it. The little dark hole I have created for myself throughout the years is finally beginning to suffocate me. I need light, air, and people.
Among the things I am planning on doing are:

-Flight school
-Learning new languages
-Pottery classes
-Photography classes
-Improving my writing
-Improving my skiing and boarding
-Learning how to surf
-Traveling
-Learn how to drink coffee
-Cooking school
-Home improvements