my dirt

Sunday, August 17, 2008

my dirt

Tardiness-

For the last four years, I’ve been at least ten minutes late to everything. Normally I was the one who arrived ten minutes earlier, now I just can’t seem to ever make it on time anywhere.

Procrastination-

It’s gone from somewhat average to seriously detrimental. Days-upon-days I just spend procrastinating. Wasting my time with useless things. Watching hours-upon-hours of TV shows, fixing other people’s problems instead of mine, and leaving everything until the last minute.

Appearance-

As some say, you can tell a lot about a person by just looking at them. Well for me that means I look like a 12-year-old school boy. For months I have seriously not combed my hair. Instead I just wash it and tie it up. I don’t do a darn thing to it. When it becomes to unmanageable, I just wash my hair and retie it. My clothes are so old they have holes all over them. I’m down to about one pair of jeans. Almost all of my jeans have tears in the inner thigh/crotch area. I don’t know if its that I’m too fat, washing them in the wrong setting or that they are just being made cheaper, but almost all have a tear down there. Most of my sneakers are in the same boat. I have a pair of Vans that have to gaping holes through them; I’m not kidding, you can stick your fingers through them and it would come out through the other side.

Whining-

I seem to whine about everything. The way my life is going. The lack of good people around me. My shithole situations sometimes. The fact that I have too many choices. Instead of just rejoicing in the fact that I have more than one option, I constantly dwell into well…I don’t know phase. I whine about how difficult it is for me to make a decision. Millions don’t get the opportunities I get and all I can do is whine about not know what to do.

Eating-

I eat so much junk food. You name it, I’ve probably eaten it. Last week I ate a whole jar of fluff in two days. Every day I drink soda and eat chips. I eat veggies and fruits about once every two weeks. If my food isn’t microwaveable, I don't make it. Well…I think it’s a way better deal than me cooking. Last night I tried to have a “real” meal by making pasta and I almost burnt down the place. Yup…I didn’t even realize I was cooking pasta until about 30 minutes after someone had thankfully taken the pan off the stove all burnt to the crisp.

Attitude-

Gosh I have the worst attitude sometimes. Truckers can barely keep up with my cussing when I get upset. Last November I went off on this receptionist and called her every name imaginable. Good for her for reporting me. I ended up writing an apology sentence—yup, sentence, not letter. I could be such a bitch sometimes.

The above listed are just some of my bad habits. I have a lot of work to do on myself and listing some of the things I need to work on helps.

See….I’m procrastinating now. This whole weekend I spent zero hours on my thesis and now I just keep procrastinating. UGH!