lows and highs

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

lows and highs

Facing yet another hectic tornado- moving time. As I’m sure many will agree, moving is the absolute worst experience in the world, yet I have no idea why I do it so often. Apparently, the longer the distance, the more expensive the move. To begin with, I’m almost flat broke. After not having worked for an entire year, which I am tremendously grateful for, I have to be able to afford this whole move on nickels and dimes. My current stress levels are over the roof. I’m pretty sure that I am in line for an early stroke. I have to keep telling myself to keep it simple because otherwise I’m going to sink quicker into the quicksand. My current internal debate is whether to furnish my apartment straight away or hold off for months. Quite honestly, regardless of how long I wait, furnishing is no cheap task. I can only sleep on my airbed but for so long, and really how empty will the living room, kitchen, and bathroom have to be. Eventually, I’m going to need shower curtains, a couch, and dinner/cookware.

On the other spectrum is my student loans. Those, unfortunately, won’t go away so quickly. Although I am very keen on lobbying to have them forgiven, I know I’ll have to pay a good chunk of them very soon. It’s not that I’m cheap, well somewhat, is just that education should be a god given right, god dammit- sorry lord baby J. Truly though I am very grateful for having the opportunity to have student loans. Those bad boys have helped me survive for an entire year without wanting much. I was still able to afford tuition, transport, food, shelter, travel, and partying. God bless those shitty student loans.

Onwards I face my credit card debt, which I’m not too worried about. I think it is pretty manageable. I’m not like my crazy aunt who has as much credit card debt as my student loans. What a nut job?! Really who charges so much for furnishings and renovations without a job?! Apparently she should’ve thought about paying back her credit card before she quit her job. Older people nowadays, jeez!

Instead of focusing on this mountain of negativity I have, I should be truly focusing on my blessings. I am still alive, despite swearing I would die by now. There are millions of people living with terminal illnesses which have the best and sunniest dispositions on life. Here I am a sulking Sally, whining about all my problems and my woes instead of living my life properly. On that lead, my health is relatively good. I have free health insurance now, and soon I’ll be able to afford health insurance in the States. Again, millions of people can’t even afford the insurance or haven’t seen a doctor/dentist in ages. Another positive is that I have a home to call my home. An apartment, in a great and lively area, that many would kill to have. Best of all, I’ve lived in many areas like this that many people again would kill to live in. Food, you cannot discount the food. I’ve been fed all the days of my life. If I truly don’t have money, I have people’s fridges to free load off of. I also have a well paying job that I truly enjoy, with people that are awesome and laid back. Best of all, I have the best support network. I have hundreds of people I can talk to and who are willing to help. Truly, I shouldn’t feel overwhelmed and whine about life, I have a great one.

Oh…best, best, best of all, I have an Ipod.  Music helps with a lot of things.