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Wednesday, September 3, 2008

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Back on home territory and I feel weird—almost as if I don’t belong. Everything looks ten times dirtier than what I remember it to be. I’m definitely trying really hard to remember why I decided to come back to this place. What I do know for certain is that I don’t want to stay in the same dead end zone forever. It’s about time I stepped into the real world or at least took a step forward to any form of career. Plain and simple, I need money. These loans won’t pay themselves and they will soon go into repayment. Its stressful and totally emotional but I know I came back with somewhat of a purpose-- to have some sort of settled life. Eventually I know I want to settle here but it seems like I have way too much to discover. I need to continue to be somewhat proactive and try to move at least a little bit forward in life. Not to forget, I still have a 15,000-word thesis to hand in. Yikes!