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Monday, September 8, 2008

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Tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock. Do you hear that? It feels like my life is set on a time bomb. Once my life was all sweet, I had the option to defer my dissertation, I lived in another country, and I was not working. Unfortunately, my reality has set in. According to my supervisor, it is nearly impossible to get a deferral for your dissertation. She is really stressing I hand it in on time, which is seriously bad news for me. It is mostly bad news because I have seriously been slacking off. For the first four months, I was literally sleeping. I watched season, not just episodes, but seasons upon seasons of television shows. I did do some literature review but it was definitely not much. Now I am down to the last wire and I am sinking. With only 2 thousand words, I am sinking incredibly fast in the dissertation race. The length I need to reach for is no more than 20,000, which puts me at a 10% mark. If I’m going to do all this on time, I need to increase this bad boy to about 70% and definitely before the deadline…because, oh yeah, I have to FedEx and pray it arrives on time. UGH! Why do I procrastinate so much?!

Besides having to deal with the dissertation, I also have to resume some form of normal, adult life. I have to pay my bills and this means I have to be working full time. My student loans going into repayment within a few weeks and I am terribly scared. SCARED! God help me.

Gosh…when will I get to fully enjoy life. 