on withdrawal

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

on withdrawal

As I am no longer an athletic, burgeoning teenager with loads of aspirations, I’ve decided to clean up my act. My friend asked me about a year ago what does the woman of my dreams look like, and I replied with a laundry list of things of what she looks like, what she does for a living, and how she acts. After I gave her my reply, she asked me to start acting as if I am already her. For a while I thought she was just bonkers. I was already into my negative thinking with: “Oh, I have no money for this and that.” Well, enough is enough. I’ve decided to truly “act as if.” I mean what do I have to lose? At this point in life I’m really dissatisfied with a lot of things and half the time I don’t know why I’m still here. I feel as if I have no one to challenge me. As if I have to continually challenge myself because that’s the only way I’ll truly have fun or feel like I’m here for a reason. Not many people care about what I do or don’t. They are off living their lives to the best of their abilities. Well…if I have to challenge myself and play games with myself to one up me than I think I should go for it. So…………the plan or just the challenge is to be overall healthy and to emulate the woman I want to be. So here goes my new awakening (seems like I have lot of these, right?).

Nutrition-
I miss hot dogs, burgers, pizza, burritos, Chinese food take out, candy, chocolates, etc. I’ve been weaning in good foods like wheat, fiber, and protein in my diet but very slowly. These past two days I’ve kicked it up a notch, and I’m in some serious withdrawal. I want chunk food.  To put me on the right track, I’ve called up a nutritionist and hopefully she could provide me with much needed guidance.

Home-
My ideal woman lives in a gorgeous apartment that I’ve already furnished in my head. About a few months back I found dinnerware that matches with her kitchen. This past Saturday, after much deliberation, I bought a few items from the set. Unfortunately, I don’t have her bank account yet. I’m still on my wee bee one.


So as the saying goes, easy does it.