sickness

Saturday, January 31, 2009

sickness

These past two nights have been hellish. Every two seconds I cough and cough. It isn’t until about three or four in the morning when the coughing stops and I can sleep for thirty minutes at a time. I’ve been taking Theraflu, Alka Seltzer Cold, and Motrin and nothing seems to work. Theraflu is the only thing that seems to work best. I’m just tired of all this. I don’t want to stop working out or going about my life just because of a cold. Bleh…so corny to stop just because of a cold.

My financial situation is dire. For the past few months, I’ve been flat broke. Moving back to the states and having to pay the full rent of the apartment took a lot out of me, not to mention that I didn’t have much to begin with because I hadn’t worked all year. Slowly I’m recuperating but definitely not fast enough. I am definitely grateful that by some miracle of god I’ve been surviving. I already paid C more than half of what I owed her and I have the rest in my checking account just waiting for her. That by far was one of my biggest concerns. She just had a beautiful baby girl and I didn’t want her to stress too much about money. I know it isn’t my complete responsibility but I did owe her the security deposit, which is something she is most likely going to need soon. So now that she is all squared away I have to put back J’s security deposit. Apparently I have a thing for security deposits. The good thing about J’s security deposit is that it is totally doable in about two to three paychecks. After I’m done with him it is onwards to tackle the credit card bill. Because I’ve been flat broke having to pay back C and whatever bill popped I’ve had no cash for anything; so this past month I’ve had to live on my credit card. It sucks but I had no other option. Considering that I still have a job and some sort of “security” I’m pretty much ok with having to live on my credit card. After all, most of America (and the world) is having financial difficulties and is caring some sort of debt.


I’m managing. There are times when I just want to cry and then there are times when I’m ready to battle anything. For now it is just one day at a time.