ode to the future

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

ode to the future

There is a point in one’s life when they decide to stop taking crap from people. When this certain point has been reached, the standards by which they measure others and how they allow others to treat them becomes somewhat raised. They see the error of their ways and decide to take a stand against any future wrongdoings. Well, for me, that point has been almost fully reached. I deserve better than what I have been given. The hand dealt to me by the universe is by no means easy, but it doesn’t mean I have to eat the crap and like it. I refuse to let people walk all over me and take it for fear that I won’t get anything better. Gosh darn it; I am smart, open-minded, and gorgeous! I can have anything I set my mind to, and I shouldn’t let people treat me like crap. I am a human being, just like everyone else, and I will get the respect that is due to me as such.

This past year, I learned that I am somebody. Someone who deserves great things in life, and that should be surrounded by awesome people. I learned that it is not okay to excommunicate people if they have wronged you. I am by no means justifying people’s actions, but I am not going to let their actions control me. If they have harmed me in any way, I need to speak up and tell them so. If they continue to do so, then clearly that is not a great relationship and something that needs to be ended. I need to forgive and let it go. Holding onto things will only harm me. I need to remember to keep the focus on myself.

Keeping the focusing on me is one of the most important things I have done because it just keeps me in balance. Instead of worrying about what others think, feel, and do, I am just continuing to focus on my life. Whatever they have happening with them, is their issue, not mine. I cannot save the world nor can I control it either. The only person I can do that with is me. I have a bright future in front of me. I have a few ideas of what I want to do with my life, and I am figuring out what I don’t want. My life will by no means be perfect, but I am going to try to have as much serenity and happiness as possible. Serenity now! Ha.

In conclusion to the ode to life, I honestly believe that somehow I was always given a glimpse into my future. The logistics of how to make it there were not clearly laid out, and I guess that’s what life is all about the logistics and enjoying your road. My road has taught me some good life lessons and has provided me with a toolbox to combat the next stage in life. All I know is that I have always been shown my future, how I get there is a different story, but I will get there.

“So it is written, so shall it be.”