end of the road

Monday, September 17, 2007

end of the road

Today marks the official end of an era. Three and a half years were spent here making friends and learning a lot about myself. I will never forget the lessons I learned here and I will try to carry them with me wherever I go. This past Saturday the ones that I hold near and dear came out to show me support as I embark on my new journey of life. They wished me well and assured me that I was making a wonderful decision. Now that everything is happening so quickly, I am filled with trepidation over my new journey. What if I’m making the wrong choice? I’m probably not, but I sure do wish I didn’t feel so alone in this. I wish I had someone to share this with—not a significant other—just someone. A life coach would come so handy now or at least someone to tell me what to do. Alas, I am on my own with this one. I’m used to it though, but still, you know? Anyhow, now the official rat race begins. I’m down to four days. In these four days, I have to ship those two boxes, buy any essential items (like a converter), pay my phone bill, suspend my phone, pay my credit card bill as well as tie up any loose ends. Ugh! It is going to be a hectic four days.


On other news, a certain someone who I see randomly has stirred up something inside of me. Sometimes I just can’t help but let go. I lose most of my self control and allow myself to be free. If only that feeling/experience was returned, things may be a lot different. I’d still be moving, but it would be a more profound feeling. I guess things will happen the way they are meant to. All in due course, right? Effing course! I want stuff to happen on my own time. Let’s see where this path takes me.