an optimistic outlook

Sunday, September 30, 2007

an optimistic outlook

Lectures begin tomorrow and I am anxious about starting. Instead of just settling for passing grades, I really want to try to graduate with distinction. Quite honestly, I should focus a lot on my grades especially because I have taken loans from my future earnings. I want this year to be a memorable one, intellectually and spiritually; not in the sense of reaching for the higher power (although, that would be great), but mostly in the sense of creating myself. On Thursday, I am hoping to join a few societies so as to broaden and further develop my horizons. The photo, French, Italian, film, and snow sports societies are of real interest to me because for the past few years I have taken more of an interest in these areas. By joining these societies, I would like to meet like-minded individuals who share my passions. What better than our own peers to help us achieve greatness in life? For now it is one step at a time and my top priority is school. Gosh it is daunting to think about how much I am investing in these year, especially financially. I don’t want to put more pressure on myself by expecting wonderful and productive things this year. In many ways, I think it is best to have low expectations for things. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I do want big things, but I also don’t want to be disappointed and distraught if they don’t happen. It is probably just my fear of failure, but this is the only way I really know how to prepare myself. So, for now, it is one step at a time. Focus on school, daily life, and then later on, focus on paying back all these gosh darn loans. Ooo what a headache just thinking about them.

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Life in London has its good and bad days. This weekend was a good weekend because I had the opportunity to go out with some new friends. Unfortunately, I don’t think I can have many more of those weekends without a job or more money coming in. As you may know, London is one expensive town, and with the dollar so low, it is almost impossible to live here. I seem to be managing just fine by walking to school—it isn’t a bad walk because it is the same walk I had in New York going to work—and by trying to eat at home. Today I opted to purchase a “mobile” just because a)I need some form of emergency communication b) credit card calling home was expensive c) more and more things here require phones d) I needed an alarm clock. Ha. It is so bad that I use a phone as an alarm clock, but hey it is all about saving money.

It is ta for now. Till we blog again.