Seacrest Out!

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Seacrest Out!

These past few weeks of agonizing over what would happen between the Teach and I are finally over. I no longer care what happens—well at about 40% of not caring. Until just a few days ago, I wasn’t really sure how that conversation about “us” affected me. I mostly thought that after that disappointing conversation we would go back to the way it was, but we haven’t. My feelings for him have somewhat changed, too. They no longer grow as they used to. No longer do I feel so incredibly attached to him or with the need to know if he will call me. I am now remembering what being me is really like. I can’t say that I am terribly mortified to be back in this isolated stage. After all, I have lived in this stage all my life. Mostly it sucks because I thought that I would finally be out of my dark hole and be a normal individual. Alas, I cannot. My destiny lies elsewhere and I must trek on to whatever awaits. I would say my sadness and apathetic level is slowly increasing as the time progresses. Oh drat! Gosh even writing this is depressing me! Seacrest out!!