almost time

Monday, July 9, 2007

almost time

At the present moment, my crisis has somewhat mellowed down. No longer am I struggling to know what’s going to happen next – well not entirely. I am all about living in the moment again. During the last few weeks of the summer, instead of enjoying my beautiful city- New York, I will be backpacking my way through South America. In reality, I will be traveling to about three to four countries. Since I will be on limited time, I want to make the most out of it. I’m still debating on whether to fly into Quito, Ecuador and trek my way down to Lima, Peru or start in Lima and go down to Cuzco, Peru. Once I have maneuvered myself from the west coast of the continent, I plan to travel southeast to beautiful Argentina for a nice relaxing week dancing tango. Hopefully, I am able to do all this and still have money to eat. Although, now I am somewhat debating on just doing one or two countries so I won’t be so poor when I get back. Unfortunately, I will be trekking on my own, so it will be somewhat expensive. Besides paying for my flight to South America, my hostels, food, and other things, I also need to book my flight to London. Ugh! This is going to be tough considering that I am going to need to find a job immediately because funds will be desperately low. Hmmph! Maybe I should reassess my journey this summer.

On another note, the teacher contacted me last week. I was incredibly shocked and quite frustrated. How dare he? He sent another apologetic text. Really what the heck is that for? Since you sent it at around one am, I am assuming you must’ve been drunk. Honestly, what does he expect from me now. I can’t say that I am completely over it or him, but I am about 60-70 % there. It’s been over a month: from holiday to holiday – Memorial Day until July Fourth. It is a bit ironic how in that month I just picked up and traveled to another country. Guess I am back to my old self.

Enough about that incident, the next order of business is getting me moved. Now that is going to be a little tricky considering that I haven’t submitted my visa application. According to the US loans assistant, I need to get the “letter” to submit to the consulate. I still giggle at the prospect of having to get a visa. At first, I was like Visa is just a credit card. Ha. Boy, oh boy, how secluded we live from the rest of the world. Oh gosh, my only worldly possessions are: a red bookcase, a queen-sized bed with a full-size mattress, a television set with a DVD player, two little blue side things, over twenty pairs of shoes, a ginormous closet full of clothes, books that weigh about one ton, and boxes of memories. The bed and red bookcase, which I love, I am hoping to leave here to loan to C until I get back. As for the little blue things, they can be tossed or given away. I am also hoping to leave the television and DVD as a loaner to C. Guess I’ll have to carry suitcases for all my shoes, clothes, and books. Should I take the boxes of memories?

Memories and my heart are the two major things I’ll be leaving behind in this amazing city. The city I have grown-up in ALL of my life. The only existence I have known is this one. But, like all good things, I must move on. Staying here will only keep me stagnant. I need to face the next step in my life. I need to finally have that future I always knew I was meant to have. Joy, laughter, tears, pain, anguish, etc. have all been experienced here and it is truly the end of a chapter for now. Please know that I’ll always love you and that you are my one and only true love. Until tomorrow New York, you’ll be deeply missed.