peace of mind

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

peace of mind

After a not-so-good Monday, it appears I am back in good spirits. Hopefully the week will run smoother than Monday did. The one thing that I have to keep reminding myself is that I am sometimes powerless over certain people and things. Once that sinks in, I’ll be able to move forward with a calmer frame of mind. I won’t want to control everything that happens around me because ultimately I can’t; sometimes all I can do is just react. My reaction should be the thing I should try to control or I guess have under control. Not everything is hopeless and I have to keep reminding myself that. Because I want to really believe that there is hope out there for me, wherever it may be. Life can be very turbulent at times, but it is during these times that you gain so much perspective on yourself and the world around you. I haven’t hit rock, rock bottom, but I have been going through a difficult time. In all honesty, I don’t buy that “cultural shock” bull shit. Yes, this is a whole new continent, new people, and pretty much new everything. However, I wasn’t fully aware of my world back home. Yes, I did have certain knowledge of things, but I wasn’t a know-it-all by any means. I still have loads to learn. Being in a different country is not my major problem. The problem lies within me. It is something I must work at. Trying to fix my environment won’t solve anything. I am the one I carry with me every where. I am the person responsible for all the happiness, joys, and sorrows. Yes, people may affect my life, but I cannot let them control it. Peace of mind and overall serenity is what I need.