Saturday, April 12, 2008
April showers
Saturdays can sometimes be fun days, especially when it rains all day long. Well, I’m pretty sure not many will agree with me on that one, but I love it when it rains because it just makes you reflect. Earlier today, when it hailed, it looked so beautiful outside. The streets were all empty and the ice produced such lovely melodies on my window sill. I, practicing my good hygiene, decided to floss while looking at the passersby and the traffic. Moments like these are precious. The whole entire time, while I was flossing, I was just wondering how many people out there could notice me flossing and what they would think of this crazy person flossing in front of the window. Ha. As the day progressed and the torrential downpours started, I couldn’t wait to go outside. I put on my galoshes and headed out into the world. Feeling mildly optimistic, I was excited to know that I had a place to be. I was even more excited to arrive early to take a look at this book that was loaned to me. It seems like it may be able to put certain things in perspective for me. When I arrived at my destination, I felt all gleeful knowing that others were already there and others were slowly trickling in. It was great to feel people’s auras. Throughout the meeting, I just became happier as the minutes passed. For some reason, I was super. I felt empowered. I felt like I finally had some purpose in life. I couldn’t wait to get started on my goals. When the meeting ended, I stayed behind to help out and chat with others. It felt good to know that certain people were OK. In a way, I felt like a motivational speaker because I told this woman to scream and shout if she wanted to. She was entitled to her feelings and I let her know so. When I left, I stopped by the local grocery because I was parched. Stopped into a stationer and purchased my third flash drive ever; I just keep losing those suckers. As I went along, I stopped in this kitchen store and fell in love with some flatware and dishware. When I exited the store I noticed a rather familiar individual. An individual that I assumed was far gone by the time I left the meeting. Pleasantly surprised, he didn’t attempt to interact with me. It is not that I don’t like him, it’s just that he creeps me out. Often, instead of walking home, I take the bus because I am afraid he may follow me one day. When I noticed we were walking in the same direction, I quickly turned a corner. I definitely didn’t want to bump into him and have him attempt anything. I tried my hardest to lose him. Yes, a wee bit psychotic of me, but so worth it. Now I know why I totally need 24 hour security service. The dude looks like such a stalkerazzi. Eventually I know he’ll talk to me but until then I am safe. Feeling all empowered for the next half hour, I started reading the book my friend loaned me. Unfortunately, when I got home, I couldn’t stop eating. I started losing my motivation and eventually took a nap. Hopefully the jolt from this Red Bull will give me the strength I need to recover some of my lost day.
On a totally unrelated subject, a friend of mine will be visiting in about three weeks time. I honestly don’t know how this little visit will pan out. Generally I get tired of him within the first few hours. Since he’ll be staying with me, I’ll have to experience all his good and bad qualities for a whole week. I am hoping to maintain my serenity and joy while he is in town. Often when he is near or when I speak to him, I just tend to revert to evil ways of thinking and acting. I really don’t want to do it, but he has wonderful ways of getting it out of me. Unfortunately, he has also perfected his ways of manipulating me. I am hoping to stay strong while he is in town. God help me.
1 comments:
This was fun to read. I'm making a resolution to feel empowered!!
April 13, 2008 at 7:38 AMPost a Comment